Poetry

                              He Comes To Me In The Darkness Of My Mind

                                      (A Poem For Mark Jay Patterson)

His name is Mark Jay Patterson

he comes to me in the darkness of my mind

where he awaits me, haunts me every time

with every turn I make, and all of my every decisions.
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He thinks he is in control of me

we fight about this many times

yet he always wins

I'm not sure where I end and he begins.
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I fear he is taking me over, once more

as I feel him controlling my thoughts and actions

into my brain he bores

he is such a bastard for what he has done to me, yet I cannot control his deeds.
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Oh no here comes the pain, once again

the terrible pain I associate with his being

he is like an everlasting ghost

and Almighty being, always heard, felt but never seen.

Remembrance

This is the way we once were

so much in love

before you turned my world upside down

you left and broke my heart.

So now I'm left with only the memories 

of what once existed

thinking back instead of moving forward

reliving the same old thing that I can never have, again. 

How I Feel

I'm sorry if some of you don't understand how I feel when it comes to relationships, and being in and out of them and uncertain where they are going, if they're going anywhere. My life is complicated, okay. That's the best way I can sum it up. Lately it seems everything is topsy turvy, turned upside down, and I don't know which way is up. That is just how I feel and how I am. 

A New Beginning

I hope I have found a new love in my life. That I can now begin a new start in my life, like a different day with a sunrise to start it. I need to forget my past love, as he is no longer in my life anymore. It is time to move on, move forward. I look forward to snuggling with my new love. Holding each other on those cold, winter nights. We've talked about this, and we both agree this is what we want. We both want to start anew and forget our pasts.

Yum Yum

This leaves only one question in my mind. Is that a banana in your pocket Superman, or is that your freakishly large package. All I can say is YUM!!! YUM!!

Poetry

                                                     
Harsh Winter

The cold of winter

brings back memories

of the way it's much harsher

of sitting in front of a roaring fire, drinking hot chocolate and tea.
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I don't want to venture out in it's coldness

to feel the way it has hold of us

I would rather stay inside

where it's cozy and warm like a beach so wide.
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Winter can blow its blustery winds

I don't care - I'll sit at the Inns

in front of a warm fireplace

where the winds of winter cannot me displace.

Poetry

When I Dream

When I lay asleep

I think of you and me

all the fun times we had

I admit these dreams weren't bad.
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I think of all the bad things said

God, sometimes I can't get them out of my head

I remember mostly the touches-the feels

those are images I want to be seeing.
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Songs I can't get out of my head

songs about us that told it all

how we felt about what we had

it wasn't a mere tumble I took when you left, my love, but a mighty fall

And it hurt.

Giving Thanks

With Thanksgiving just around the corner, I'd like to give thanks to those who are no longer with me, my Mom and Dad and other relatives who I remember and miss. Whose smiles always brightened my day no matter how gloomy it was. To my friend, Teri. Still love you babe. 

My Blog

I now have as of  11/19/12  496 views of my blog site and I want to say thank you all for taking the time to view it. I will try to get more posts in. And I'm not making any excuses here, LOL, but writing on my novel has been keeping me busy. Anyway, I'll keep posting and everyone keep viewing. Thank You All, Mark.

No End Of The World

I've been following this theory of what the Mayans said about their prophecy the world would end as of December 21 st of this year. I'm sorry but I'm like most people, I don't put stock into it. It may mean a change is coming, who knows, but it certainly doesn't mean the world will end. All these people saying that it may be true because of weather things that have happened this year or wars that have happened overseas. I don't believe it.

Sometimes I feel like I have been set adrift on the ocean, floating but not knowing where the waves will take me. That's how I feel sometimes, all alone out there. Sometimes it's peaceful and others it's lonely. I think about some of the people I would like to be enjoying this beautiful sunset and ocean voyage with, yet they are nowhere around. Yes sometimes I feel like I have been set adrift on the ocean, floating alone - just me.

I'm Glad The Political BS Is Over

I'm happy that the political backstabbing and name calling is over, now maybe this country of ours can get back to business as usual. I'm also happy that a President who at least recognizes the Gay community as being the same as the Straight was elected. The other candidate was all against it, so was his Vice President choice. I hope we can all work together to make this a decent country where we can all live the same, have the same Rights and Equality.