Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Is This Love So Wrong (Poetry)
There's so much more to loving someone of your own sex
it's much more than sucking and fucking
it has to do with trust
trust and love that must be earned
the way I loved my lover -
and he loved me too
our love was built on trust and love for each other
so many times we went to bed and
lay there holding, caressing and kissing
it was always a pleasure
it meant something deep
something lasting and sincere
always without fear
about what other people thought about our love
about the fact we were two Gay males
we weren't ashamed of what we were
Is This Love So Wrong
no we don't think so.
-MAC-
(Poetry) Princess
Like a vibrant flower you bloom
hair long and red
body slender and petite
long curvy legs and dancer's feet
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Hair long and red
Mary Jane I saw you standing before me
Body slender and petite
you looked so good to me.
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Mary Jane I saw you standing before me in all her beauty and splendor
a statuesque beauty with grace and poise
You looked so good to me
giving me always the reason to love you
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A statuesque beauty with grace and poise
Mary Jane stands before me in all her beauty and splendor
the likes I think I shall never again gaze upon
just looking at you makes me feel lightheaded - so in love
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Mary Jane stands before me in all her beauty and splendor
Like a vibrant flower you bloom
Just looking at you makes me feel lightheaded - so in love
Body slender and petite.
-MAC-
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Who Are You My Angel?
I never saw your face
only heard your voice through a friend
who says you are interested in me
are you like me
too shy to approach someone you really like
what a shame it seems to throw away something that could be special
for only that one reason.
Now I wonder if we will ever have the joy of meeting
of seeing if something may have happened between us
possibly a relationship that might have been
but we may never know that now
Who are you my angel?
only heard your voice through a friend
who says you are interested in me
are you like me
too shy to approach someone you really like
what a shame it seems to throw away something that could be special
for only that one reason.
Now I wonder if we will ever have the joy of meeting
of seeing if something may have happened between us
possibly a relationship that might have been
but we may never know that now
Who are you my angel?
Read Me
You say you can read me like a book
Yet you never gave me a second look
Why is that?
What is the reason for it?
Do you think you're too good for me?
Am I that far below you?
You don't know me
So how can you say those things about me
Act like I'm no good for you
Maybe you're just no good for me.
Yet you never gave me a second look
Why is that?
What is the reason for it?
Do you think you're too good for me?
Am I that far below you?
You don't know me
So how can you say those things about me
Act like I'm no good for you
Maybe you're just no good for me.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
It All Reminds Me Of You
Every time I smell fresh strawberries it reminds me of smelling your hair
Each time my hands touch something smooth it reminds me of your skin.
Each time I hear the wind whispering I think of you whispering to me in our bed
Each time I see someone tall and slender it reminds me of you
Every time I see a picture in a magazine of two male lovers it reminds me of you
In short a lot has reminded me of you lately, maybe I want you back
We should sit down and talk. We owe each other that much.
-MAC-
Each time my hands touch something smooth it reminds me of your skin.
Each time I hear the wind whispering I think of you whispering to me in our bed
Each time I see someone tall and slender it reminds me of you
Every time I see a picture in a magazine of two male lovers it reminds me of you
In short a lot has reminded me of you lately, maybe I want you back
We should sit down and talk. We owe each other that much.
-MAC-
Monday, May 20, 2013
Why Try
Why try I ask myself why.
No one likes my writing so why try
No one likes me but I don't know why
There must be a hidden reason behind their blind hatred
I never done anyone wrong
No never done anything to anyone
That would cause them to feel the way they do
Not sure what this whole world is about
Is it who they listen to that makes them think the way they do
Are they mere puppets controlled by a mad puppet master
I sit here sad and lonely
Feeling sorry for myself.
So low I feel like a heavy weight
Sometimes I feel like I should go back to the way I was in my 30s
Maybe that's what I need to start over and just let go
Feel free to fly high where no one can touch me
I'd be on golden wings because that's the way I felt then
The only thing that bothered me then was him
My evil self I try to keep hidden deep inside me
Tried never to let him out
Yet I wonder if I'd be happier living the way I did then
High as a bird in flight.
Yes - Yes soaring across the sky
That would be me never afraid to die.
-MAC-
No one likes my writing so why try
No one likes me but I don't know why
There must be a hidden reason behind their blind hatred
I never done anyone wrong
No never done anything to anyone
That would cause them to feel the way they do
Not sure what this whole world is about
Is it who they listen to that makes them think the way they do
Are they mere puppets controlled by a mad puppet master
I sit here sad and lonely
Feeling sorry for myself.
So low I feel like a heavy weight
Sometimes I feel like I should go back to the way I was in my 30s
Maybe that's what I need to start over and just let go
Feel free to fly high where no one can touch me
I'd be on golden wings because that's the way I felt then
The only thing that bothered me then was him
My evil self I try to keep hidden deep inside me
Tried never to let him out
Yet I wonder if I'd be happier living the way I did then
High as a bird in flight.
Yes - Yes soaring across the sky
That would be me never afraid to die.
-MAC-
Friday, May 17, 2013
The A-Z's Of Sex
A - Asshole, Anal Sex
B - Blissful, Balls Sucking
C - Cock, Cum, Cocksucking
D - Doggie Style
E - Ejaculation
F - Fucking, Fetishes
G - Groping
H - Horny, Hand-Job
I - In Love
J - Jacking -Off, Jizz
K - Kinky, Kissing
L - Loving.
M - Masturbation
N - Nude.
O - Oral and Orgasm
P - Pinching, Piercing, Panties, Penis
Q - Queer, Quickie
R - Rimming, Rush
S - Stripping, Sucking, Sixty-Nine Spooning, Slurping.
T - Threesome, Throating, Tea-Bagging. (See Balls Sucking It Means The Same Thing. LOL)
U - Underwear
V - Very Feminine
Y - Yank it
Z - Zesty Sex, Zip it up :)
B - Blissful, Balls Sucking
C - Cock, Cum, Cocksucking
D - Doggie Style
E - Ejaculation
F - Fucking, Fetishes
G - Groping
H - Horny, Hand-Job
I - In Love
J - Jacking -Off, Jizz
K - Kinky, Kissing
L - Loving.
M - Masturbation
N - Nude.
O - Oral and Orgasm
P - Pinching, Piercing, Panties, Penis
Q - Queer, Quickie
R - Rimming, Rush
S - Stripping, Sucking, Sixty-Nine Spooning, Slurping.
T - Threesome, Throating, Tea-Bagging. (See Balls Sucking It Means The Same Thing. LOL)
U - Underwear
V - Very Feminine
Y - Yank it
Z - Zesty Sex, Zip it up :)
Thursday, May 16, 2013
I Would Like To Take A Moment
First I want to thank all of you people for viewing my blog. I would like to encourage everyone to leave a comment, suggestions on how I can change things or if something is confusing how is it confusing. This will only make my writing stronger.
Thank You - MAC
Thank You - MAC
Monday, May 13, 2013
Why Am I Here?
I often wonder that each day
then every night when I go to bed
I lay there and before falling asleep
I pray I will fall asleep and never awaken
eternal peace with
no worries, no more pain
no more hatred from people who claim they fucking care when they don't give a damn!
yet I still awaken and trudge through another day
trying to find my way, make my way through all the bullshit that is called life
what is wrong with me that I can't find someone to love
am I so fucking flawed that I'm unlovable?
you know people beauty is only skin deep
take a look in the mirror sometime
you're not perfect either!
so I lay in my bed and I wonder why am I here?
then every night when I go to bed
I lay there and before falling asleep
I pray I will fall asleep and never awaken
eternal peace with
no worries, no more pain
no more hatred from people who claim they fucking care when they don't give a damn!
yet I still awaken and trudge through another day
trying to find my way, make my way through all the bullshit that is called life
what is wrong with me that I can't find someone to love
am I so fucking flawed that I'm unlovable?
you know people beauty is only skin deep
take a look in the mirror sometime
you're not perfect either!
so I lay in my bed and I wonder why am I here?
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Torture Scenes From "Asylum City" A Mark Jay Patterson Novel
This is a scene from the novel I am working on called "Asylum City". In this scene my protagonist, Narcotics Detective Mark Jay Patterson is brought to my antagonist, Jonathan Lawrence Dramon, a drug smuggler. In this is one scene where Dramon tortures Patterson. Enjoy and feel free to leave comments.
Sensory Deprivation Tank
Patterson was brought into the large back room of the warehouse, by two of Dramon's men and dropped onto the floor. Dramon stared at him smiling.
"Get him in the chair and ready for the injection of the drug," Dramon told his men.
The same two men who brought him in held him seated in a wooden chair. Patterson saw the smiling, sadistic face of Jonathan Lawrence Dramon approaching him. Dramon squatted in front of Patterson , then he showed him a hypodermic needle.
"Now I know you're aware of what one of these is," he said still smiling sadistically. "Because I know you've stolen heroin from my people and used it on yourself."
He then tapped the inside of Patterson's right elbow till he found a vein. "Only this is LSD. Pleasant nightmares, Mr. Patterson."
Patterson looked down at his arm, seeing the needle drawing closer to his skin. When he felt the prick of the needle, he let out a guttural moan that sounded like a dying animal.
The effects of the LSD were immediate. Everything around him became distorted, surreal. He didn't even feel the two men pick him up by the arms.
"Take him to the tank and get him ready to take his fatal plunge," Dramon told his two men.
Patterson noticed their arms and hands were meaty globs that had no shape or form. They just seemed to hang there. He was dragged to the top of four metal steps, unable to do anything to free himself by this time.
"I think you will find this tank to be like nothing you've ever seen before Mr. Patterson. It's called a Sensory Deprivation Tank, and it is filled with water at body temperature. Now in a few minutes my men will be attaching wires to your head, so I can monitor your brain waves."
Patterson's struggles to free himself were futile, as the two men had a tight grip on him.
Dramon gave him an eerie laugh. "Very soon Mr. Patterson you will begin having horrible nightmares, like none you have had before."
He then looked over at his men. "Lower him in."
Dramon walked over to the window on the front of the tank, and wiped away the steam. He peered inside, then smiled and laughed as he watched Patterson's body twitching. He could only imagine what was going through his mind at the moment.
"That's right Mr. Patterson. You're finding out for the first time in your miserable life what pain and suffering feels like. Enjoy," he said.
Patterson began remembering things about his childhood, all the really bad things. Things he had not thought about in years. He remembered a time he and a friend went swimming in a pond, on his friend's relative's farm.
They swam out quite a ways, too far, and Patterson began struggling to stay afloat. He started panicking and his friend had to come over, put his arm around him and help him back to shore. As he recalled this, his legs kicked his arms flung wildly about inside the tank, like he was remembering how close he came to death that day.
He recalled another part of his life, when he and Tiffany Dramon argued over the fact she had come in on him having sex with her younger sister, Kari.
She screamed at him. "You never listen to me Mark."
He raised his voice to her. "I told you I love you."
"Yeah and then I find out your fucking my sister."
"Yeah I admit Kari and I had something at one time."
"You never listen to me, Mark," she said. "Why won't you listen to me?
"You keep saying that. I listen to you all the time."
"Yeah like when I tell you Jonathan is doing nothing illegal like smuggling drugs, yet you still snoop around here like that's what he was doing."
"Maybe this whole relationship was a bad idea Tiffany," he said.
"You're some piece of work Mark, and to think I wanted to start a family with you."
"You're nothing special either."
Jolts of electricity were then sent through him. He kicked the wall with his heels of his feet, while punching it with his closed fists.
After a few minutes Dramon told his men, "Release him, and take him out through the back door. Throw him in the alley. Let his friends find him."
Sensory Deprivation Tank
Patterson was brought into the large back room of the warehouse, by two of Dramon's men and dropped onto the floor. Dramon stared at him smiling.
"Get him in the chair and ready for the injection of the drug," Dramon told his men.
The same two men who brought him in held him seated in a wooden chair. Patterson saw the smiling, sadistic face of Jonathan Lawrence Dramon approaching him. Dramon squatted in front of Patterson , then he showed him a hypodermic needle.
"Now I know you're aware of what one of these is," he said still smiling sadistically. "Because I know you've stolen heroin from my people and used it on yourself."
He then tapped the inside of Patterson's right elbow till he found a vein. "Only this is LSD. Pleasant nightmares, Mr. Patterson."
Patterson looked down at his arm, seeing the needle drawing closer to his skin. When he felt the prick of the needle, he let out a guttural moan that sounded like a dying animal.
The effects of the LSD were immediate. Everything around him became distorted, surreal. He didn't even feel the two men pick him up by the arms.
"Take him to the tank and get him ready to take his fatal plunge," Dramon told his two men.
Patterson noticed their arms and hands were meaty globs that had no shape or form. They just seemed to hang there. He was dragged to the top of four metal steps, unable to do anything to free himself by this time.
"I think you will find this tank to be like nothing you've ever seen before Mr. Patterson. It's called a Sensory Deprivation Tank, and it is filled with water at body temperature. Now in a few minutes my men will be attaching wires to your head, so I can monitor your brain waves."
Patterson's struggles to free himself were futile, as the two men had a tight grip on him.
Dramon gave him an eerie laugh. "Very soon Mr. Patterson you will begin having horrible nightmares, like none you have had before."
He then looked over at his men. "Lower him in."
Dramon walked over to the window on the front of the tank, and wiped away the steam. He peered inside, then smiled and laughed as he watched Patterson's body twitching. He could only imagine what was going through his mind at the moment.
"That's right Mr. Patterson. You're finding out for the first time in your miserable life what pain and suffering feels like. Enjoy," he said.
Patterson began remembering things about his childhood, all the really bad things. Things he had not thought about in years. He remembered a time he and a friend went swimming in a pond, on his friend's relative's farm.
They swam out quite a ways, too far, and Patterson began struggling to stay afloat. He started panicking and his friend had to come over, put his arm around him and help him back to shore. As he recalled this, his legs kicked his arms flung wildly about inside the tank, like he was remembering how close he came to death that day.
He recalled another part of his life, when he and Tiffany Dramon argued over the fact she had come in on him having sex with her younger sister, Kari.
She screamed at him. "You never listen to me Mark."
He raised his voice to her. "I told you I love you."
"Yeah and then I find out your fucking my sister."
"Yeah I admit Kari and I had something at one time."
"You never listen to me, Mark," she said. "Why won't you listen to me?
"You keep saying that. I listen to you all the time."
"Yeah like when I tell you Jonathan is doing nothing illegal like smuggling drugs, yet you still snoop around here like that's what he was doing."
"Maybe this whole relationship was a bad idea Tiffany," he said.
"You're some piece of work Mark, and to think I wanted to start a family with you."
"You're nothing special either."
Jolts of electricity were then sent through him. He kicked the wall with his heels of his feet, while punching it with his closed fists.
After a few minutes Dramon told his men, "Release him, and take him out through the back door. Throw him in the alley. Let his friends find him."
Monday, May 6, 2013
From Darkness Into Light
Out of darkness and into the light
I feel sometimes I am walking along a dark path
or down a long hallway which I know not where it will lead me
and I feel frightened by the uncertainty
but the worse part is I have no one beside me to hold
to keep me from shivering when I am in these dark places
I just keep roaming and wondering will I ever find my true love
my soulmate or am I dreaming all this?
Is this all just a dream I have been living over and over in my head
one I cannot awaken from no matter how much I try?
I'd love to believe you're out there my love-waiting for me
and someday soon we can hold one another and guide each other
through this dark maze of uncertainty that is called life.
-MAC-
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